Your Love

Pain flows freely from me to you.....as we purge the heart of all misgivings......increasingly consonant with the vibrations of jarred vocal chords.......I try.......and maintain peace........inside for your calm stay.........as we try and forgive all unnecessary mistrusts.........stricken by since long......I give you my longing trust in golden locks of thoroughbred thoughts.......I say the words you need to hear........You are my one and only one......through and through a history bygone and yet unseen........I fish around for unneeded mistakes......I make love to you in dreams.......I fashion a liking for long sleeps.......even though I find it hard to lay my head down.....thoughts of you keep me awake...
Feed me with your loving hands the ambrosia on your lips.

Look Into My Eyes

You shall know the stillness of time

Hold my Gaze

and you shall find the nuances that are mine

Look into my eyes

A light in my eyes

will take you far

today into a depth of space 

rare and virgin

The firefly of twinkling dreams

shall be your host as we

tumble into clouds of pristinity

the eternal companions of your heavenly escapade.

Look deep and far

the creation beckoning your arrival

the touch of your hand shall

free the distant stars

to sparkle in the night of your return

the Night, we shall be together forever and ever

like we were once long ago......

Khalsa

When we have arrived ........savouring and sampling these flavoured breezes........Now may you say that we're numb with pleasure......

Missions to Glory....carried out in swift perfection.......the more we follow clarity......the more it qualifies us for sublime perfection........the more we try and fade it.........it accordingly refuses to make its way clear to the top........the more we refuse and drop the gists........the more we end in ruts..........the more we exert ourselves in glorious effort...., we become pillars of swift ascent...........the more we try to deal a few flicks of successes.......the more we are tested in our whole-heartedness.........

Dreams unto reality.........the cosmic chakras of existence........clear of all fabricated entanglements of space-time revealing It's self in vast revolutions of the sun above and below me........throbbing with the juries of sparkling lustrous elixirs..........the nearness of distant flag-rows of the armies of the universes encamped on the shores of lighted galaxies..

Thoroughly fixed gaze of mine.......on the rotations of this universal conundrum of sorts......fixed like an arrowed projection, the flow of thoughts from the prodigious outflow of placid emotion....

The narrative blasting across the sky like a comet destined to return before death with a superfluous trace of distant pasts......connecting the pole end gazer with a story of its own.

Seasoned findings of an emergent traveler..........I find you sitting in my mind, there I see you freely....fishing for me.......I love you....the last word.......I see you mincing no emotion that flows over from you to me........I find you loving me endlessly........I love you.......the first word......the words of wisdom descending out of this glorious globule of imaginary friendship that seems so real the more we turn the pages.

Natural freedom.......springing in my steps.......the forbearance of my ancestors..........the fruits of their labour....as I collect us into 'we', the more I try......the more it affects this affection of mine for you.....This is the One.....I care to tell you about..... ones of whom I shall say......are the ones living as words in these pages of truth......ethereal and sublime like elixirs of sparkling waters of life.......My homes, these heavens......

Journey

Ill worth.....I've lost fluidity.......Maybe for awhile..........let us be tasteless and bland.......Maybe it recovers......Yes, I'm looking for a homeward journey......Yes, I'm free to go that way........I'm looking for a reason to splash around my feelings........I'm willing to walk the plank.......Yes, I'm here to furiously churn my oceans of intrepid light...........Yes, I'm here from yonder far............I'm not going to stop............I'm going to cross over...........

Yes, I'm here to be........I'm near........Yes, I'm free to call it a day.......Yes, I'm nearing closure of my composure...........Freely going to join in on the coasting rollers of love

ए खुदा ........... यह खत तेरे नाम लिखते हुए यह हाथ अपनी लकीरों की ज़बानी पूछते हैं तुझसे ………  क्यों तूने बढ़ाया इन लकीरों का सफर..........शायद मैं जानते हुए भी पूछना चाहूँगा। ………  क्या चला तेरे मन में जो छीना उन ऊंचाईओं से मुझे तूने और चलाया इन गंभीर लकीरों के इम्तिहानी रास्तों पर। ……शायद यह तुझे  ही है मालूम  ……यह दास्तां कब घड़ी तूने मन में जो दोहराई इस चमन-ए-ज़मीन पर।

Remember my struggles.......the time.......the loads of life gone by.........firm in transcendence......Let me rise into new fields........the realms.......of freedom existential

Fear is the key..........to loving devotion......Freedom is the nature of things eternal......I shape this future.........I turn it aside..............I clear the seams.........and let it ensure the return of goodness.

Soul Warrior

Freedom....I kill.....need ring in voice.......tailpace.........creation.........flukefree........creation........ resttop.........never mind.......dish tv......as you wish.......dreamtree........to be or not to be...........mindless........treason.......fishfree........teatree.........disambush.........testosterone........unambiguous............foolish.......diseased............ultimate...........I take an unambiguous retreat on life........I try and rearrange the reasons........I free the birds...........teaming up in the sky..........I cross the river stretches...........I train my gunsights on the crux of truth to blow away the mettle of this menace of unreasoned disclarity..........the bullets fly down on tails of fire..........crumbling waterfalls............reap the grain........go against the rain.............to reach the regatta of colors dawning across the perpetually sunlit sea of my homely territory...........we have the Castle........tread softly to reach the shore............once more the lights go out...........and I reach the end of time..........pulsating slowly away into the darkness of this ethereally beautiful night ...........corpses of the disillusioned enemy are kicked apart forever.......dismembered untruths.......hallowed walk of the antechambers of buried gods........asleep since the watches' death.........stir up into lighted freedom in a voluminous release of a divine aura of pure effulgence.................'I' remains to carry on with the awakening of newborn time......Death conquered........Thy Gracious Hand upon my head........I rest in remembrance..............

Being Herenow

O my Love........you are herenow..........lost in my eyes........the way to be is not to be........Don't let me try.........say you own me........have won me..........in these quiet interstellar galactic silences......yes you are here with me in my sweetness of dreaming fantasies.......the more you may try only if we fail...........but we don't........already you try and watch these stories of successes.......make a path tough for myself as if......its the only last straw........o how to try and win....yes me........this way I go.........only to recalculate my speedy return..........yes I'm back in the realm of freedom of love

Never mind......No mind......I cry out to you.......I'm not the silences.......I'm not the craze......I'm here to win you over......with my winsome fussilade .....Of starry dreams. Yes I'm herenow........In these paper anthems.......yet unsung.....songs of furorely finesse......I'm unsure of my laughter yet.........but makes no reason to cry........I'm being here for Us.....Yes I'm sure of that sorely.........I'm being here for us........I'm sure of that sorely.......I'm being easy to succeed........but I'm more to it than preempt feeling gone awry......Being........Just for you.........

Nirmohi

सर्वप्रिय निरमोही की दास्ताँ , इन अक्षरों में है समाई।
जब हम जाएँ बिखरें उन कणियों की भांति।
मैं इस अंदाज़ में लिखता हूँ जिस में न है कोई मिलावट।
पर जब यह सवाल सामने आये कि क्या है इन  सब का तात्पर्य स्वर,
तो मैं यही कहूँ कि यह है मेरे दिल की हालत,
बयान करता हूँ किसी बिखरी शायरी की ज़ुबानी।

अब कब तक है यह मुमकिन,कि मैं आपकी समझ के अंदाज़  में अक्षर मरोड़ूं । एक झुण्ड है जो ख्यालों का, गुज़रता जा रहा घोड़ों की तरह। यही कहूँगा,.... यूँ मेरे ख्यालों की कहानी.... गुम है कहीं ..... 

Healing

Damning these discoveries.....we step ahead.....into unknown paths..........vistas that are yet to be trodden........leaving these realms......we let go of forgone frozen needs......souls that are not yet to be set free by the time...........I invent all these crass expressions.........only to see what I'm made of......a little confusion does me in,.......I'm over the top from here......I'm meant to be.......I could not go on even if I tried hard..........but then You're always there for me.......I don't know how to manage these expressions to make them stay in line.....Good for something......if that's what I'm all about.......I must find what it is I'm able to notch......Health, Happiness....Yes, that's what I want....

Move forward.........into yesterday's entanglements........I'm free.......Freely into the dawn of tomorrow......I train my face......and make a nuance of surrender.......of my corrected endeavours....into the centre of Your Light......a lighted freedom I partake of your wordless wondrous existences...

Waheguru....the more I press....the more I bleed......words ringing in a stuporous silence......I find the magic of your untrainable untried assumptions......that I see freely flying in the maze of my conscience.......I try to home in on my victories..........these untenable feats of frivolities that seem like discoveries.......I need your love to colour and light me inside......I am willing to make a sacrifice of this love to you..........the installments of meaning fused in my words......I try to disdain these efforts....but I'm more than the sum of them all.......

I could dream......I could lie down forever.......never to wake up from these unrealities.......today I'm broken......but soon I mend.......I don't believe in my miseries being endless.....I make the choice.....I try hard to enlighten you of the path........that I've traversed alone......how alone........but now I can't go on making you sad......I'm here to shine my heart......and leave with you this time for sure.........I couldn't go on making us sad any longer....there are ways.......which I believe in I can achieve what you need me to be......I believe in them.....my strength, my Intergrity...........yes, I've achieved whatever it was that I wanted......I don't want more......At least........I can make it back for you..........I don't remember......how it is that you have been loved by me.....My Love

I dream of wayward connections that bind me to you.......somewhere up in the air......demanding the last pieces of flesh from me.......I say your name........Waheguru........I close up and heal these wounds and make a new start....

Shayar

भावों में नहीं यह छलकने देता कि तुम ना होते तो क्या होता । ज़रूर कहता हूँ कि ढूँढता फ़िर रहा हूँ तुम्हें आज कल यहाँ से वहाँ।
बहुत फ़िर चुके हम आज भी। मुकाम अगर आया हो तो यही कहेंगे उससे , कि जब तुम न थे तो घुले थे सभी मतलब इस ज़िन्दगी में। आज जो तुम मिले तो मिट गयी भले है शिद्दत। पर न हम हैं यहां पर, न तुम हो वहां पर।


शायद कोई आया हो सुकून सीधी सड़कों पर चलकर। ज़ब वादियों से आगे, हम सिसकते किरदारों के सवालों की ज़ुबानी यह पूछें की अगर तुम यही चाहते थे , हम ही से है मिलना फिर क्यों न कहा। …यह कहते ही थे  … कि उलट गया जहान जो इंतज़ार की इन्तहाँ  हो चुकी थी।
जब यह कहकर हम गुज़रे तो तलब की इत्तला हो चुकी थी।
फरमा ही देते कि इच्छा से आये, है इच्छा से जाना।
रुखसत न बदले भले ही बदले ज़माना। अगर कह ही देते तो याद आता वो तराना। गाये जा तो बनेगा फ़साना।
तरानों की मुज़्बिल जुबां पर इखलाक न हो तो गाये जा जहां पर.... ।
हमें आ गयी आज शायरी ।
यहां पर ही है दफ़न उन ज़मानों की सोहबत, जिन्हें हम कहते थे मशहरूफ़ियत की ज़ाहिरी ॥ 

Chosen Memory

And memories detaille me......as I join this fresh venture to you......home I am....will always be.....don't give me that tense angst....you always give......here I am....streaming through all......I stream.....into you.....I love.....till all I love......I make it up......to you I make.....I strike a chord....to you.....I strike.....the ease of full throttle....I take care of you.....
I make love to you......I make in my dreams.....I turn you on my bed....I love ......I slide.....I turn .....I side......I  love you.....through and through......
I try and I feel ......I turn and I steal.......your full bloom heart.....I adore......and replace your worries with my strength......until you slide comfortably entwined into my arms.....I stay....I love....your love.....our love.....love love .....blooming heart

Encombined into my compass....there are few stories that require a straight tongue to tell....eschew all flittering glits.....I try and tell  you this....that I may be gone....But I'm not far from home.....I stay close to my chosen.....I love my own.....I believe in myself.....When you feel stressed by interstellar vagaries......I ensconce upon you ......my far folds......I bring you in my clasp near to my heart.....I stay with you.....I do not forgo the matter....I stay close to you....I do stay.....When you try to leave a mark, I may be gone......only to the back end of our minds but never outside.

I have a way which makes me feel this way.....I may not say.....what stays or what may fade one day...but you tell me the way to stay is in the way I say the same with a touch of innocence broken into the freshness of a new day.....I may be far or near....I stay all clear of a stamped riding enigma....I stay where I am until you and I move together in step

Freedom to love.....stone these attachments......collect these feelings in my heart....I'm here....down when alone...I'm here....say no more....I try to taste my fears....I say...you say....we could go on....clarify these feelings....we could go.....but I have to stay.....Never more I want to judge....You look around to me....see what I got.....but there are ways..... in which I suffer.....still and unseen.......    yes.....I free my frumpled thoughts from the quagmire......I try and stay keen on leveling out.....out of here.....but I don't 'cause I can't.....I stay meandering and mum....I create a new significance....I blow up the blowholes....I stay in sight....I wish you would be near in a way that's not all too clear....I could say I'm so into you....Push you over....and into yourself.....I never bear my losses....But I can say I love them to flower.....I try and believe you're the one....my one.....my one and only....I care not to let go now......I believe in better things....I love you....O my Love....the big and the small....I open up my stretched heart....I'm here to make you see......if only believe.....I'm here to make you say.....I'd love you through all that we have seen happening.....and I say I tried but its seen happening here if not elsewhere.....I've the intentions flying around within me.......and I'd love to carry you inside....I've tried to level out.....you've seen....that I've made you see....and you have....I try....if only to stay calm...in these soul worships, these reflections of time.....I'd never want to let you go away from where we stand.....hmm..:\

Once left, thence remembered....

Quiet calls feel me...I'm wrong.....I'm wrong and over in an instant......but I'm here to leave.....in a clever way.....I'm here to leave....I'm here to leave....I'm here.....

I don't want to reach you.....I get destroyed on the way.....I'm here with a message....not my words.....I'm the message.......I'm here to leave.....I say I'm here to stay won't make you pray....not my words.....I'm here to believe a thing or two.......No,.....I may be wrong.....'cause I'm.....I'm here to understand the play....what it is......I could go on.....but you wouldn't mind....why I don't......stay on the path....that's not my decree.....I'm here to make paths where there are none....just to leave.....that way.....just to leave....some way

I won't say....I have everything..... but I stay on the path......I stay..... where I set foot becomes a path....I'm here to love.....who could say these beautiful words.....then put them in mouth.....I don't know where to go....these treasures dry up so fast....I could say more......I could say less.....But I could say the word you want me to say......these words dry up so fast.....this poison/ambrosia of sorts......

I wouldn't desire.....I won't count these words I cast over to you....I cast....In these treasures......I set my heart.....but I can't love what I don't desire...though I'll love what's to love.....I can't say I know the end.....I'm here to leave is all I comprehend.....I'm here to leave....a way that's more...I could stay.....but I won't, I'd love to go.....to eternal going.....these beauties never seem to dry up...

Lovers

Never mind the full flow of these feelings that flow out on the paper........I'm running.....running out of fuel......feeling like running into you.....I try to shape these desires into the components of peace.....I never run far enough to forget you......It is nature to try and forget......I may not know the end of this....but know enough to know these cycles of creation....I try to fade away but never can into the light.......I try but stay on into the nature of changes.....I would like to tell you this.....but I'm old inside....I'm here and now...I would love you to forget my instabilities.....and take me into the nuances of your being......I try to bring it into the nature of love....and feel the natural urge to forgive you all with everything....I try and I succeed.....

Intermediately passing up grievances to you.....O Lord......only to find nothings....nonetheless,.....in my answers.....I fumble....the words I mumble.....I stumble, I crumble to see you inside the vast spaces.....of my innermost existence.....I secure the most able of all queries...to notch up strength and courage to see you shoot through space and time....I try to ensconce this gravity only to return to brevity.....I careen this career into clearness of thought until the spaces encapsulate this wondrous emotion to let it dry till corrosive exhaustion.....the plethora of findings unmatched by time....I fall into you....I clear you out....this wondrous runaway dream.....exposure of closure of wondrous endorsor....this fuming fumigant of transcendental treasure......I try and fail.....but fall into motionless stalls.....I try to entertain this emotion of sorts.....I try but I trail....I cry but I fail....I'm fine but I fall...into your enormity of embrace......I rest in peace.....frozen treasure of fuckless pleasure......I'm satisfied with you inside me.....I'm none but you in spirit and faith....I try but I miss you to touch me and I feel free to please your hisses with the touch of my kisses...

We don't know the end of all miseries......when we don't know nothing ...we seem to know something......we know verily nothing.....we would like to think we know everything.....we can't know the gist....covered up in mist....treat me wrong...we can't get along.....heaven is up there....never here.....never hope for it....it might be down in the dumps......never have fear......its bound to drear.....feel never crumpled.....you're over in a frumple.....heaven knows my words...the're here to stay....I'm here to leave...I know that's real.....got to go home....its here yet far......don't want to carry on.....I don't have that long......don't push me.....I don't want to talk....I'm just cleaning me out on this paper book.....I just want to say.....I'm here to leave.....just say,.....I was never meant to pray...

Sadness |

I derive no pleasure....but I find nothing more pleasurable than sadness....It opens up my possibilities.

Reverence clogs up my heart.....years of unsaid discoveries....frozen....forgotten......but much not forgiven you.....until now.....My eyes...open the floodgates.....of my reservoir of sadness.....to them......I owe all.....my saviors.....Finding it easy....I let them reveal....Fears don't bind me to you....but Light....My Divinity....My Love.

Freedom from the angels of heaven....leaves me stalking death up close to the edge of the existence ...leaves me suffering in the night......feeling free from nervous crackling that meanders in the unknown valleys of my level mind....careening into the abysses of darkness....I love your darkness
I burn your darkness...till you & I are free in my darkness....till I cajole you into my embraces of love....and adore you.....body and soul.....I love you and make love to you....I melt into you and make you mine forever

Love me into the abysses of darkness.... the more I try....the more I fall....never succeed until you say so.....I try to level out....but you suggest otherwise.....I'm happy I try to  forget nothing you ever taught me to love......I face the outcomes with unequaled zest and lie enthralled to the effect of understanding these plays of light.....I try to forgive all nuances ....all around me.....but I try to set right the scores.....I try not to try at all....I fill the countless jars of this sounding instrument with the water of kindness and understanding, but never to the point of changing the tone....I trial my errors on the count of my love for forgiveness......I stand firm in my times of leisure to safely let you know..... I'm home