Deep in My Heart

Down deep in my heart
The moods change like seasons
The anger rising again like a flood
Calmed again like a storm surpassed...

So says the beating life inside me
The myraids of colours free from any entanglement. . .
express freely somewhere to reach the surface. . . .
got to go down and get it
the darkness closing in. . . . .
broken lines and a freedom to just be. . . . . .
Looking out for love. . . .

I gave my everything. . . .got back pieces
of let's say usable sanity
Trounced everything that pulled me back
God sing his glories. . . . .who realized the dustiness of this life

Let's sing a song of hope. . . . . .
to gather the vitality passing in the breeze. . . . .
and spend it wisely. . . . .only realise. . . .
what is to be realised. . . . . through this path
that leads to the Ultimate. . . . . .forfeit the blindness

Somewhere chase the light. . . . setting on the horizon
and find a common ground. . . . . . in earnest
our small comprehension won't lead us there. . . .
faith and fellowship of that One word. . . . .
surfeit all weakness like dry leaves

the force of Karma under his watch. .
a mismatch of vitality and avenues . . . .
need none anymore. . . .
Strenghten where you lay weak with practice alone
until the goal you realise. . . .
that moment shall shine always through. . .
Find it . . . . .find it . . . . . .just do. . . . . .

Frozen feelings thaw in the summer spring sun....i wake up in a daze.....frightened by your noises......but the heart is stronger than b'fore.......i tell a story different than b'fore......the words mean a different language.......the language of my heart .....similarly you enter into the haven of life.....the fray of existence........i try to keep my beat...going..... my mistakes .....may them be forgiven......i keep no condition to my belief in your love.....but i admit.....that im not in control.....of me......when footsteps faded....i knew u were there.....entwined into my body and mind......i am still in your presence.....and i begin to understand.......im not in awe anymore....i stand in gentleness......reverence......bfore i can speak.......i try to save my skin.......i regret having played this game........i still need to say......i am in love with u......with out having known how it felt... to actually have loved u

| Unknown

An unknown threat. . . . .an unknown enemy, an unknown unsettlement in scores. . . . . .driven by arrogance. . . . . .an anathema. . . . .figured emotions that figured like the receding sea. . . . .sucked into a sink. . . .. . . . . this isolation. . . .. . . .i withstood an age of desolation till i was no more. . . . . .
i must withstand. . . . . . . . .i must tell you i love you. . . . . . .then in the reams i fill my heart. . . . . .yours is a journey. . . .. .. a journey into the unknown. . . . . . .my unknown black heart. . . .. . that must be crossed undivided. . .. . . . fear is the scull. . . . .. . the boat is the word. . . . . . .the water is black like the ashen beak of a crow. . .. .there is no trace of a ray. . . . . . . . in the depths flows a current against your heading. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . wonder if I make it across. .. . . .. . because the night burns the planks till they groan and twist. . . . .. . . the sea of blackness unfolds a tale of lost and waylaid voyagers. . . . . . . . .i challenge my Karma. . . . . . . .it is not a sudden wrench of the will. . . . . . . it is a slow grind that polishes with the time that passes..

I fade. . . . . .
fade away. . . . . . .into the leaden blackness. . . . . . .charting my course. . . . . . .with the lone light of my heart. . . . . . . . .the flow is too fast to think. . . . . . .. . I just let the heart respond to the impulses and I break free. . . . . .into the openness. . . . . . which is as dead as the the deadness of a black hole. . . . . . .I'm too absorbed by it. . . .. . . . to be recognized by myself. . . . . . . . . I hear some light calling out to me in the distance and I stop to beacon. . . . . . .Just a pause. . . . . then the whole ocean. . . .as if churns, taking me in. . . . . . . .tooo much to absorb. . . . .can't be fathomed as far as the leaps of your thinking. . .. . . . I seem to care. . .. . . beginning to act on it till the answers are given. . . . . . .I begin the dive to the centre. . .. . AAh

The scar. . . . . . . of time remains. . . . . .brushed by the hands of time. . . .. . . .to float in an ebbing tide. . .. . . .the destiny remains. . . . . . .. Eyes close and blackness closes in. . . .. . .. .Pain of separation rising. . . . . . . like heating mercury. . . . .wonder in lone ness what the truth holds. . . . .can I meet it or shall it chase me indefinitely. . . . . . . .I wish love in your heart for me. . . . .. . is it asking out of the way. or just plain spontaneity . . .. .. . . who knows, only God knows the pieces of this riddle. . . . . . .I can smell the answers but who's sure what the passing time holds.
Water this plant of All Omniscient Eternal Love
and nothing will be barred . . . . . . .I love you
so wait for my arrival